it's only temporary...

I couldnt understand it. But one thing im sure of is that "the heart is deceitful". How can it be so painful when I've already decided to release it all? Yes, it was painful. He just probably didnt realize it. His eyes were on someone else.. he was with her, talking to her.. took pictures with her, while I was there.. I felt like I was nailed as I stood there, looking at them, enjoying their time together. God it hurts! But isnt this what I've prayed for? I asked the desires to be taken away and for open doors to be closed if it isnt from you. Maybe this is the answer. Maybe it isnt really him. Too bad. Too sad.

But God, I will continue to rejoice no matter what and I will continue to praise you more than I ever could.. for I know that all of these are just temporary. I may feel so down right now and everything's seem so dark.. still I know that You are in control and that you allow this to happen to build me up, for me to get ready for what you have prepared for me. It's just temporary, right Lord?

Thank you.. because You remain faithful.
Thank you...

:)