MY SOUL ASYLUM

be encouraged!

I'd like to encourage myself and everyone with this again.. I've posted this before.. I just feel like reposting this now. I've been dragged down for these past few days..same issue, same thing. I think God is trying to tell me something about this situation... I have to seek Him more in this area. Thanks to those people who are always there and are standing with me in prayers.

There would always be times in our lives that we feel like giving up especially with the circumstances that we are experiencing. Sometimes when what we see is so far out... when it's so different from what we are expecting to happen... we feel like quitting, or we end up complaining. I have learned that we shouldnt be. We shouldnt quit. Why? simply because God sees everything and he's in control. He's powerful. His delay doesnt mean denial...(we heard of this a lot of times!). Not only that, He cares so much for us and he loves us and doesnt want to see us defeated. So cheer up.. smile.. stand up and Fight a good fight of FAITH!


hope this makes sense to you.

"With the great breakthroughs come the most violent shaking and turbulence. Disorientation, dizziness, loss of direction, and even fear and discouragement can occur just before a breakthrough."
 
(THE PROMISE THAT NO ONE WANTS by Ptr. Joey Bonifacio)

• "Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for he who promised is faithful."                -~Hebrews 10:23~
• "You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God , you will receive what He has promised." ~Hebrews10:36~
• "Now FAITH is being sure of what we hope for and certain of what we do not see." ~Hebrews11:1~

the HEART..my HEART & it's thoughts..

The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.
       Who can understand it?
            -Jeremiah 17:9-

So much has happened. 

Right now my life is blessed. No where near perfect but not awful enough to complain. I've continued to surround myself with positive people and I'm always surrounded by love. I've even found a love much deeper than I ever thought possible. I guess my life has taken a turn for the better.


But just recently...very recently, there's a confusion in my heart. I talked it over with my housemate last Saturday...I needed someone to pray for me.. (thank you Tims!). I guess Im just too impatient to see clear answers to my questions.

...if you had the chance to just get away.. would you?
Start over with only some simple people you love and adore.
Leave behind those who brought you either a heartbreak
or a simple band aid on your heart.

I really dont know.
I couldnt figure out yet on what to do next and which way to go.
I guess I am just too confused right now.
I mean, my heart is.

I need to seek God more on this area.
I know my God is sovereign.
My heart probably is deceiving me... misleading me.

I dont know....

Well, again.. I must seek him more...
and I hope to get clear answers so soon.
I dont want to be confused esp with a heart issue.

I think for now I'll just have to continue to pray
and give God the glory for all he has done, is doing and will do in my life.  I think I should learn how to wait patiently...
....to patiently  wait on God. 
I think I must learn how to enjoy this season instead of thinking too much.

I think I should rest now... my mind, body and my heart need to rest.

a thankful heart...

I am still in awe of God's love and faithfulness in my life. I am not perfect yet his love for me is just so perfect. At the start of the year (or even before it started), I began to write my faith goals for 2008. You may click on this link if you want to go back to it again.. faith goals  (The complete list is in my private journal.)



Its just the 5th month of the year and God has already fulfilled some of his promises. And I am confident that He will fulfill everything that He has promised.



It's just the 5th month and I've been through a lot and God has done a lot of shaking and pruning and molding me into what I should become. And I know that He's not done with me yet. There's more to come. Im still in the process of becoming into the woman that God wants me to be. It's not easy. It wasnt easy. I had to let go of a lot of things, people, relationships, habits, addictions.. extra baggages. I shed a lot of tears and held on to some things for so long but I knew that I had to be quick to OBEY.



I laughed, enjoyed and spent time with special people in my life.. celebrated my 26th birthday with people close to my heart...those I call my family and real friends. I also  experienced rejection, more pain, accusations and pesecution.. I was hurt. I cried a lot after laughing a lot. I was misunderstood and alienated. Some people just hated me and I was threatened a lot of times. I lost my job and was so distressed.  ALL of these happened within just the first 4 months of the year. It's unbelievable how things happened so fast. Nevertheless, abrupt or not.. I still desire to know HIM more and seek Him more. All I had in my nothingness was Him. He has been telling me to WAIT because what he has prepared is just nothing to what I have been going through. I had to rejoice amidst all of it. I just cannot look away.. I just cannot escape from Him. I had to celebrate.


Now it's just the 1st of May but I already have a long list of  my breakthroughs for this year.


I thank God for my house and my housemates (my housemates are blessings to me)..i just really love our house, it's near the center, its within Cebu City, it's safe, it's green and i love it!. I call it our HOME. It's everyone's home. :)


* I thank God for the legal papers for Anton has been done and that everything has been settled now with his father. I hope that this is going to be a good start..  a good start of everything. (restoration,forgiveness,reconciliation,his salvation, friendship,family).    


* I thank God for Anton. I thank Him for being with him everyday.  Anton now knows how to pray and sing along with some christian songs.. (amazing!).    


* I thank God for my tickets to Singapore/Malaysia for this December. I am praying that Anton would be able to go with me as I visit my Aunt there.    


* I thank God for my sister's hunger for God. Everytime I see her reading God's word and spending time with him, I couldnt help but praise God for his faithfulness.


* I thank God for my neighbors upstairs and our friends (you know who you are..hehehe) who always stays with us. I always feel so blessed everytime I see them at home.    


* I thank God for Anton's new yaya.. she's not just our helper or yaya but she's a family to us. I've been praying and waiting for 6 months and now, I got someone who also desires to know God more. You'd be amazed everytime she sings christians songs while doing the housechores and whenever she gets so excited to listen to Pastor Raymond's preachings every Saturday or Sunday. She just cant get over with it right away..she keeps on talking about it even when we get home from church.


* I thank God for my mom and my aunt who never fail to support me and help me at those times that I had nothing. I just can wait to see them enjoying a relationship with God.


* I thank God for women in my life like Ate Cherry and Axie and Mina. They gave me the guidance and advices that I needed.    


* I thank God for my new JOB. (Highly-favored? yes I am! I'm finally done with the CALL CENTER thingee!). I just got a home-based job. I got this job a few days after I lost my previous job. I am earning money, helping people and spending time with Anton...all at the same time. I've been praying for this since October. (I know Im being trained to be a housewife..hehehe). I got God's favor with this job.. I just cant write everything here but God has been giving me surprises almost everyday since I got this job(even until now). It is through this job that I got a LAPTOP and an internet connection here in our new place.    


* I thank God for my boss and his wife. He said that he himself cannot understand why he's been giving me favors and has trusted me from the first day he hired me..  I knew that it was God all along... He  planned it all. I am so blessed by them. He's the best boss ever! (next to my BIG boss..heheh)


* I thank God for our TV- 21 inches, colored and cable ready at P1,000.00 only (pay when able) plus free delivery. heheheh.... where would you get a tv like that? thanks to Mr. & Mrs Reyes..  Anton and I and my other housemates are so blessed! ;)    


* I thank God for moving me to the married group. I am now surrounded with women who always gave me advises esp with marriage stuff. ( I still love Axie though..heeheh.. its just that it's so different this time! its exciting!)  waaahhh!!!  I couldnt believe I am now part of their group.. I am learning a lot. Thanks to Mina my new leader, who's always there for me. Thanks to Apple,Anne,Mina R. and Mina-Cesar for sharing the lessons they've learned in relationships/marriage. I am encouraged & excited.    


* and.. I thank God for his unfailing love and for not giving up on me. I thank him for this relationship, for this intimacy with Him. I just cant contain all the blessings that he has been pouring out into my life. Indeed, this year (and the coming years) is a year of BREAKTHROUGHS, DOUBLE INHERITANCE, SALVATION, a year where YOKES WILL BE OFF OF OUR LIVES, PRODUCTION, RESTORATION, INTIMACY WITH GOD and NEW BEGINNINGS.    ...


& its not the end yet.. it's just starting.